So last night was pretty exciting. Our friend Barry was over for a visit. We had a nice time visiting and catching up. Then all of a sudden we heard Milo going nuts outside. It was pretty late so I went to the door to call him inside so he didn't bother the neighbors. Imagine my surprise when I called his name and he came barrelling in the back door. Usually if he's barking at something it takes quite a bit of coaxing to get him to give up the hunt. As he came in the door he was still yelping. Then we realized that he was hurt. That's right, that's damned raccoon is back. He had a bite or a scratch, hard to tell which, on his front right leg (last time it was his front left leg) and his back left leg. Poor fellow has an interesting limp going on. We also found a scratch awfully close to his family jewels if you catch my drift. Poor Milo! We got him cleaned up with one of our cloth diapers. Who knew they could be used to stop bleeding from raccoon bites. Maybe I should tell Tiny Tots, they can add it to their newsletter. We got Milo calmed down and I started to research about raccoon bites. After his last altercation we got him up to date on all of his shots, including rabies. After doing some research, we think he will be fine. Apparently the big thing to watch out for is the scratches themselves getting infected. If the attack had happened during the day, it would be a higher likelihood that the animal was rabid. Then we would definitely take him to the vet. So we are going to watch him for a few days just to be sure. But he seems fine. Eating fine and all that. But just to be on the safe side we gave him a bath last night to get everything cleaned out.
This morning we were having a great day. We napped in the morning and then headed out to Barefoot for coffee and a bagel. I had the Bob in the car to get her used to it, since that is what we are going to be using in Paris. The fact that we used the Bob today will be very important later:) Since she was doing so well, I figured I would take advantage of it and get a hike in. *Before I get to this story, let me be very honest. I was tempted to never tell anyone what happened on our hike. But I told myself that I was going to be totally open and honest with this blog and our experiences. So here goes.
She was pretty sleepy when we got to Rancho so I just put her in the Bob and away we went. We had been walking at a good pace for about 10 minutes when disaster struck. I am pretty confident that I will have nightmares about what happened today for the rest of my life.
There were bees/yellow jackets buzzing around her. And anyone that knows me, knows that I am deathly allergic to stings. I keep a epipen in the diaper bag but that only buys me about 20 minutes, so they freak me out to say the least. I was trying to shoo them away from her when all of a sudden the Bob was careening down the side of the trail. The trails at Rancho are fairly slanted and the Bob is just waaaay too smooth, apparently. Before I even knew what was happening I was throwing my body down the side of the hill to catch the stroller that was picking up speed quickly. Apparently I was also screaming in the process, which I didn't realize I was doing, because a woman that I had passed a while back came running around the corner to see if we were ok. At the point I had stopped the stroller and must have looked fairly bewildered looking around me, kind of wondering how that had just happened. She helped us back up the hill and got us brushed off. She mentioned that I should probably check for ticks. The funny thing was, Callie wasn't upset at all! Maybe she will be a thrill seeker. And she can tell her therapist how it all started! Luckily the shade was down on the Bob so she didn't get stuck with any branches on her little adventure. The woman that helped us was so sweet. She made sure we were ok and said "This can be our little secret."
At that point, Callie still seemed great and into a hike so we kept going. In retrospect, this was not the best decision. There were bees all over the place but we kept going. I thought Deer Hollow Farm was closer than it was. I told myself, just get to the farm. We made it to the farm and I took her out to look at the goats. I found some benches, so I thought I'll just feed her here and then we will head back. Again, the bees came out to play. So we booked it back to the parking lot. As in, running! So I wanted exercise today, I certainly got it. I was freaked out by all the bees but I just kept telling myself "Stop freaking out. Protect your daughter and just get to the fucking car." And we did without incident. I fed her and she promptly passed out. And back home we went. When we got home I dumped all of our clothes in the wash with hot water and the two of us got clean in some hot water as well. Baths always make her tired so is down for a nap. It wasn't really until then that I really reflected on what had happened today.
Remember when I questioned whether I had "maternal instincts"? No longer. Mama Bear in the house. I had absolute no thought for my own safety I just wanted to get to her any way I could. I'll be honest, I feel pretty much like a terrible mother right now for letting it happen but I know my reaction was the right one. I am really trying to forgive myself and find solace in the fact that I reacted and we are both ok. The call to Bill was a tough one. I was praying that he would still trust me with his daughter. Thankfully he does. He told me about how he thought about how stable strollers were on trails like that when he went on his dad's hike last month and that was with our other stroller. If she had been in our regular stroller it would've been much worse, it probably would've flipped over before I could've gotten to her.
So on one hand I feel like the shittiest mother ever and on the other I feel very lucky that we are all ok. I am horribly embarrassed yet I find hope in the fact that I was able to catch her.
But like I said, when I started this blog experiment I promised to be honest and that's what I've done. And I hope and pray that I will never have to make another post like this one today.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Preparing for Paris
That's right we are going to Paris in just a few weeks! We are hurriedly trying to get everything together. Bill found a great flight that is non-stop and we reserved early enough to snag the bulkhead seats with the travel bassinet. I have no idea how Miss Callie will do with the elevation, but given how sensitive she was on Pacheco Pass coming back from San Diego, I'm guessing it won't be pretty. Everything I have read on the subject says to nurse her on takeoff and landing or at the very least give her the pacifier.
I've started coming up with our list of what to bring. I keep debating on the stroller. We are planning on bringing the Bob jogging stroller, I'm just not sure how much we will use it with Callie actually in it. She has been all about being held so she can see people and what is going on. I'm guessing we will be using the Moby and the Ergo more than the Bob. The concerns with the Bob are storage when we are out and about, say at a cafe or something. The bob doesn't lock when it is folded up, so it may be tricky to keep it out of the way in small places. It also will most likely be problematic on the metro. But in my reearch, the buses reserve spots just for strollers so we may go that route instead.
On the upside, I won't ever have to manage all of this on my own. Grandma Tere is coming with us and I am so glad we will have her with us! It will be great to not be on our own when Bill is at his meetings. And I can't wait to share Paris with her! It was my favorite city on our honeymoon. I can't wait to go back to Notre Dame and Versailles.
The biggest hurdle is finding a place to stay. We obviously didn't have a whole lot of time to reserve accommodations ahead of time. And honestly, it is tough for me to research while I am at home with Callie. She doesn't give me a whole lot of time on tripadvisor, so we decided to get the professionals involved. We decided to go with our travel agents at Willow Glen Travel. They planned our honeymoon for us and it was in a word: unforgettable. We are hoping to stay in an apartment so we will be able to spread out a bit, not worry too much about a crying baby disturbing people and have access to a washer and dryer as well as a kitchen and a place to store pumped milk. So hopefully we will have a place to stay in the next day or so with any luck.
It felt so good to pass this one off so I could concentrate on other things like passports! Mine is all set from my trip to the UK last year. So today I spent most of the day getting Callie's documents in order. I went and got her birth certificate, filled in her passport application and even managed to snap a picture that should work! The photos are the tricky part! She has to have a white background (yet another use for our cloth diapers!), eyes open, alert, not crying, nothing in her mouth, around her face, supporting her head, etc. Clearly, someone who had never spent much time around infants came up with these rules! The really crazy part? Its good for 5 years!
So I laid her on the changing table with a cloth diaper under her head and it turned out pretty well!
The other thing I've been looking into is attitudes towards breastfeeding in Paris. From what I've been able to ascertain, for the most part, France has a bottlefeeding culture and it is pretty unusual to breastfeed past 6 months there. Its been a little tough to get a straight answer on the sights I've been reseraching because it always turns into a fight: "Why would you want to expose your breasts like that anyway? Peeing is natural too, but I wouldn't do it public." Which for the record is the stupidest argument against breastfeeding in public. But my absolute favorite was "I am from France and I refuse to breastfeed. I am not a cow." I almost died laughing.
The same de-evoling happened when I was trying to decide whether or not to bring the stroller or just bring baby carriers. I found responses like this one: "Strollers are such a nuisance. Why would you bring your baby on vacation anyway. Why don't you just come and say that you don't want to be away from them rather than trying to convince us that you hope to give them a cultural experience."
So ya, fun stuff out there! That's where we are at for the moment. More to come soon I imagine!
I've started coming up with our list of what to bring. I keep debating on the stroller. We are planning on bringing the Bob jogging stroller, I'm just not sure how much we will use it with Callie actually in it. She has been all about being held so she can see people and what is going on. I'm guessing we will be using the Moby and the Ergo more than the Bob. The concerns with the Bob are storage when we are out and about, say at a cafe or something. The bob doesn't lock when it is folded up, so it may be tricky to keep it out of the way in small places. It also will most likely be problematic on the metro. But in my reearch, the buses reserve spots just for strollers so we may go that route instead.
On the upside, I won't ever have to manage all of this on my own. Grandma Tere is coming with us and I am so glad we will have her with us! It will be great to not be on our own when Bill is at his meetings. And I can't wait to share Paris with her! It was my favorite city on our honeymoon. I can't wait to go back to Notre Dame and Versailles.
The biggest hurdle is finding a place to stay. We obviously didn't have a whole lot of time to reserve accommodations ahead of time. And honestly, it is tough for me to research while I am at home with Callie. She doesn't give me a whole lot of time on tripadvisor, so we decided to get the professionals involved. We decided to go with our travel agents at Willow Glen Travel. They planned our honeymoon for us and it was in a word: unforgettable. We are hoping to stay in an apartment so we will be able to spread out a bit, not worry too much about a crying baby disturbing people and have access to a washer and dryer as well as a kitchen and a place to store pumped milk. So hopefully we will have a place to stay in the next day or so with any luck.
It felt so good to pass this one off so I could concentrate on other things like passports! Mine is all set from my trip to the UK last year. So today I spent most of the day getting Callie's documents in order. I went and got her birth certificate, filled in her passport application and even managed to snap a picture that should work! The photos are the tricky part! She has to have a white background (yet another use for our cloth diapers!), eyes open, alert, not crying, nothing in her mouth, around her face, supporting her head, etc. Clearly, someone who had never spent much time around infants came up with these rules! The really crazy part? Its good for 5 years!
So I laid her on the changing table with a cloth diaper under her head and it turned out pretty well!
The other thing I've been looking into is attitudes towards breastfeeding in Paris. From what I've been able to ascertain, for the most part, France has a bottlefeeding culture and it is pretty unusual to breastfeed past 6 months there. Its been a little tough to get a straight answer on the sights I've been reseraching because it always turns into a fight: "Why would you want to expose your breasts like that anyway? Peeing is natural too, but I wouldn't do it public." Which for the record is the stupidest argument against breastfeeding in public. But my absolute favorite was "I am from France and I refuse to breastfeed. I am not a cow." I almost died laughing.
The same de-evoling happened when I was trying to decide whether or not to bring the stroller or just bring baby carriers. I found responses like this one: "Strollers are such a nuisance. Why would you bring your baby on vacation anyway. Why don't you just come and say that you don't want to be away from them rather than trying to convince us that you hope to give them a cultural experience."
So ya, fun stuff out there! That's where we are at for the moment. More to come soon I imagine!
Sunday, August 1, 2010
An Interesting Day
Today was my mom's birthday. So we got up and got at it! Callie slept really well last night! So we got up and headed to Whole Foods to pick up mom's birthday cake. Bill and I had a fairly humorous conversation about how important birthday cake is to my mom the previous night when I told him we needed to stop by and pick up the cake before heading over to mom's.
Bill: " I'm sure she can have strawberry shortcake at the strawberry festival." Me: "No. It must be cake. And it must be chocolate cake." I think he was simultaneously amused and confused. I explained that it was really important and I knew he didn't really understand but that was ok:)
Then it was off to Mom's house to take her to the strawberry festival in Watsonville.
Callie ready for her strawberry day!
The festival has definitely grown! We went a few years ago and it covered maybe a block. Not anymore! We walked around. Luckily there were lots of strollers around so we didn't have to worry too much about it being a big deal. We got our chocolate dipped strawberries, strawberry fresca and Bill pretty much went ballistic over the mexican food offerings. I must admit the tacos he picked up were pretty damn awesome. While we were walking around we spied this tent.
At first I just thought to myself: "How funny and clever!" I honestly thought they were just selling tshirts or something. But it was actually a child care tent with a quiet place to nurse and diaper changing facilities. It was awesome! When I walked up with my screaming girl, the volunteer calmly said: "Table for two, no wait!" Comfy chairs, nice temperature and snacks to boot! The volunteer gave me the whole back story on the group. The owner, Nonie, had been at an outdoor festival in Louisiana when she needed a cool place to feed her little one. It was really hot and crowded so she walked back to her car and had a canopy. She set up the canopy and the festival organizer came over and told her that she had "an unauthorized booth" and that just wasn't kosher. They told her if she didn't remove it she would be escorted out by police. She refused and tried to explain that she just needed a cooler place (it was realllly hot) to feed her kid. But they went and got the police anyway. That is when she set up Mom's Breastarant. She said one of the best things people can do to support them is to go to their facebook page and become a supporter since a lot of times they point festival organizers towards their page to show them that it is a needed/wanted service at outdoor events.
We finished up at the festival and drove back home. Mom was having dinner with my brother and we joined them. We had a lovely meal at La Paloma. Callie was so into my brother's voice! She was just totally hypnotized! She did great.
She is even starting to get really good with her hands!
We were hanging out outside the restaurant when I felt something in my hair. I thought it was just a leaf so I went to brush it out of my hair. But it was not a leaf. ooooh no. Not a leaf at all. Something poked me, so I pulled my hand away and noticed something in my finger. Uh oh. For a minute we weren't sure exactly what it was, but it hurt. I turned to Bill and said is this a stinger from a bee? We still weren't sure. Mom checked my head and didn't see anything in my hair, but we looked on the ground and saw the honeybee that had obviously just stung me. And...panic. I am VERY allergic to stings. The last time I got stung I swelled up like crazy and the doctor said that the next time I got stung I needed to get to the hospital ASAP. I had an epipen but we weren't sure how bad it was yet so we held off. We all kind of fumbled around with what to do with Callie. Finally I just told Bill, let's just all go. So we did. In the meantime, Bill had gotten the stinger out with a credit card, so the stinger was gone. My finger started going numb and hurt pretty good. It was starting to swell up as well. Although not nearly as bad as I had in the past, so I thought there was a chance it might be ok. We drove to O'Connor hospital and got checked in. None of the employees seemed in any particular hurry with any of the patients in the waiting room. I mumbled to Bill "I'm glad I wasn't bleeding to death." We had to wait in line for a good 5 minutes while the receptionist was typing in some obviously very important paper work. No hurry, just freaking out here in line. No don't stop typing, its fine. Finally she gestures to come forward and we explain that I am very allergic to stings and I've just been stung. Again, not concerned. More concerned with our insurance card. We give her our information and we are asked to sit down. They call us up and I think:"Ok! We are going inside." Oh no. Meet with nurse to take my height and weight and seemingly useless questions: "How old are you? When was your last period?" I almost laughed out loud. I told her I had just had a baby. To which she responded: "Are you using birth control?" And what does this have to do with my damn finger? Anyway, we finish with the nurse. In the meantime my mom has brought Callie in who is starting to get hungry. We are asked to sit and wait again. We wait probably 15 minutes when we decided to ask a nurse if it was safe to breastfeed Callie with venom in my system. To which she says"You know, I just don't know. Hmmm. That is an interesting question." No shit. That's why I asked. She is still just fumbling with what an interesting question I have just asked when I asked her if there was someone she could ask for the answer. "I'll go ask one of the doctors." Fantastic. She comes back and says it should be fine. Hooray. So we were able to make Callie happy in the meantime. Finally they call us in. My finger had stopped throbbing and swelling. The doctor told us to use benadryl. I told him that I was nursing. He gave me an somewhat annoyed look and said "Well if you have a reaction you are just going to have to stop breastfeeding." Awesome, thanks. So we spent our $150 deductible on "try some over the counter antihistimine that could possibly dry up my milk supply."
Anyway, after all this time in the waiting room we all figured that I was just fine but we got another prescription for an epipen while we were there. He said he would write it and then promptly forgot all about it, twice. The discharge guy came by with our paperwork to sign. Bill mentioned that we were waiting on the prescription. Discharge guy looked very confused. So he tracked down the doctor and reminded him about the epipen. Finally we were out the door.
We finally got to go back to mom's and have the chocolate cake. It was so nice to relax. Callie was happy and fed and Jack the dog was soooo happy to have Callie to lick all over. Apparently, she tastes delicious! Mom explained the importance of birthday cake in her family and I think Bill now understands what the big deal is.
So you might say we had a very "interesting" day!
Bill: " I'm sure she can have strawberry shortcake at the strawberry festival." Me: "No. It must be cake. And it must be chocolate cake." I think he was simultaneously amused and confused. I explained that it was really important and I knew he didn't really understand but that was ok:)
Then it was off to Mom's house to take her to the strawberry festival in Watsonville.
Callie ready for her strawberry day!The festival has definitely grown! We went a few years ago and it covered maybe a block. Not anymore! We walked around. Luckily there were lots of strollers around so we didn't have to worry too much about it being a big deal. We got our chocolate dipped strawberries, strawberry fresca and Bill pretty much went ballistic over the mexican food offerings. I must admit the tacos he picked up were pretty damn awesome. While we were walking around we spied this tent.
At first I just thought to myself: "How funny and clever!" I honestly thought they were just selling tshirts or something. But it was actually a child care tent with a quiet place to nurse and diaper changing facilities. It was awesome! When I walked up with my screaming girl, the volunteer calmly said: "Table for two, no wait!" Comfy chairs, nice temperature and snacks to boot! The volunteer gave me the whole back story on the group. The owner, Nonie, had been at an outdoor festival in Louisiana when she needed a cool place to feed her little one. It was really hot and crowded so she walked back to her car and had a canopy. She set up the canopy and the festival organizer came over and told her that she had "an unauthorized booth" and that just wasn't kosher. They told her if she didn't remove it she would be escorted out by police. She refused and tried to explain that she just needed a cooler place (it was realllly hot) to feed her kid. But they went and got the police anyway. That is when she set up Mom's Breastarant. She said one of the best things people can do to support them is to go to their facebook page and become a supporter since a lot of times they point festival organizers towards their page to show them that it is a needed/wanted service at outdoor events.
We finished up at the festival and drove back home. Mom was having dinner with my brother and we joined them. We had a lovely meal at La Paloma. Callie was so into my brother's voice! She was just totally hypnotized! She did great.
She is even starting to get really good with her hands!We were hanging out outside the restaurant when I felt something in my hair. I thought it was just a leaf so I went to brush it out of my hair. But it was not a leaf. ooooh no. Not a leaf at all. Something poked me, so I pulled my hand away and noticed something in my finger. Uh oh. For a minute we weren't sure exactly what it was, but it hurt. I turned to Bill and said is this a stinger from a bee? We still weren't sure. Mom checked my head and didn't see anything in my hair, but we looked on the ground and saw the honeybee that had obviously just stung me. And...panic. I am VERY allergic to stings. The last time I got stung I swelled up like crazy and the doctor said that the next time I got stung I needed to get to the hospital ASAP. I had an epipen but we weren't sure how bad it was yet so we held off. We all kind of fumbled around with what to do with Callie. Finally I just told Bill, let's just all go. So we did. In the meantime, Bill had gotten the stinger out with a credit card, so the stinger was gone. My finger started going numb and hurt pretty good. It was starting to swell up as well. Although not nearly as bad as I had in the past, so I thought there was a chance it might be ok. We drove to O'Connor hospital and got checked in. None of the employees seemed in any particular hurry with any of the patients in the waiting room. I mumbled to Bill "I'm glad I wasn't bleeding to death." We had to wait in line for a good 5 minutes while the receptionist was typing in some obviously very important paper work. No hurry, just freaking out here in line. No don't stop typing, its fine. Finally she gestures to come forward and we explain that I am very allergic to stings and I've just been stung. Again, not concerned. More concerned with our insurance card. We give her our information and we are asked to sit down. They call us up and I think:"Ok! We are going inside." Oh no. Meet with nurse to take my height and weight and seemingly useless questions: "How old are you? When was your last period?" I almost laughed out loud. I told her I had just had a baby. To which she responded: "Are you using birth control?" And what does this have to do with my damn finger? Anyway, we finish with the nurse. In the meantime my mom has brought Callie in who is starting to get hungry. We are asked to sit and wait again. We wait probably 15 minutes when we decided to ask a nurse if it was safe to breastfeed Callie with venom in my system. To which she says"You know, I just don't know. Hmmm. That is an interesting question." No shit. That's why I asked. She is still just fumbling with what an interesting question I have just asked when I asked her if there was someone she could ask for the answer. "I'll go ask one of the doctors." Fantastic. She comes back and says it should be fine. Hooray. So we were able to make Callie happy in the meantime. Finally they call us in. My finger had stopped throbbing and swelling. The doctor told us to use benadryl. I told him that I was nursing. He gave me an somewhat annoyed look and said "Well if you have a reaction you are just going to have to stop breastfeeding." Awesome, thanks. So we spent our $150 deductible on "try some over the counter antihistimine that could possibly dry up my milk supply."
Anyway, after all this time in the waiting room we all figured that I was just fine but we got another prescription for an epipen while we were there. He said he would write it and then promptly forgot all about it, twice. The discharge guy came by with our paperwork to sign. Bill mentioned that we were waiting on the prescription. Discharge guy looked very confused. So he tracked down the doctor and reminded him about the epipen. Finally we were out the door.
We finally got to go back to mom's and have the chocolate cake. It was so nice to relax. Callie was happy and fed and Jack the dog was soooo happy to have Callie to lick all over. Apparently, she tastes delicious! Mom explained the importance of birthday cake in her family and I think Bill now understands what the big deal is.
So you might say we had a very "interesting" day!
Friday, July 30, 2010
So...You Gonna Have Another One?
I have gotten this question so much it is ridiculous. At times people were asking me if we were going to have another baby mere days after we had Callie. Now, I want you to imagine your most excruciatingly painful experience. Would you want to do it again? Say you broke your leg. Would someone come up to you and say "Hey, don't you want to break the other one? You wouldn't want your right leg to feel left out would you?" Ok, so kind of a ridiculous analogy but there really isn't a good one that is equivalent.
It is quite fascinating to hear how people ask the question. Some people are simply curious. I don't begrudge an innocent question like that. But some seem to be looking for vindication of THEIR own decisions.
We haven't really started getting the responses like "Why would you do that to your daughter?" yet. But I'm sure if we do decide to only have one we will start to get those kinds of responses.
On days like today, I only want one child. But other days I think it might be good to have a brother or sister for Callie. We aren't locked into either decision yet.
Time Magazine ran an interesting article last week on the Only Child Myth. Bill and I have been talking about how we imagine more people from our generation will likely choose to only have one child than in previous generations. For one thing, we are having kids much later in life than our parents and grandparents did. Also, the economy has to play a role as well. The Department of Agriculture estimates that it costs an average of $286,000 for one child in the US and that is before college.
We have several friends that have decided to only have one child. Some had difficult pregnancies/births and don't want to go through it again. Others feel that one child supports the lifestyle they want for their family better.
I imagine to some respect the grass is always greener. If you have one child, you probably wonder what it would've been like with 2 or 3. If you have more than one, you probably wonder if just having one would be easier.
I know the stereotypes. Only children are selfish, spoiled brats who are socially inept. But the recent research doesn't support those ideas anymore. There are also "nicer" aspects of the stereotype: only children having higher IQs because the parents have more time to spend on the one child in terms of homework and the like.
The nice thing about having siblings is it teaches conflict resolution and sharing in a self contained unit. Obviously, only children will still learn these values, it just has to come from outside your house through playdates and peers rather than siblings.
We are nowhere near even making these types of decisions, just an interesting topic to explore...Wonder what other people's ideas/experiences are like...Comment?
But I suppose when you really get down to it, it is no one's business what we decide to do with our family structure. I know it won't keep people from asking, but I will try to remember that if/when we make any decisions about how big our family should be, it is simply up to us and us alone. But because I know myself, I know I will probably continue to be bothered by this line of questioning, just like I got annoyed when it seemed like the second the ink was dry on our marriage license we (I) were getting hounded about when ,not if, we were gonna have kids. At least for the time being the question is if, not necessarily when:)
It is quite fascinating to hear how people ask the question. Some people are simply curious. I don't begrudge an innocent question like that. But some seem to be looking for vindication of THEIR own decisions.
We haven't really started getting the responses like "Why would you do that to your daughter?" yet. But I'm sure if we do decide to only have one we will start to get those kinds of responses.
On days like today, I only want one child. But other days I think it might be good to have a brother or sister for Callie. We aren't locked into either decision yet.
Time Magazine ran an interesting article last week on the Only Child Myth. Bill and I have been talking about how we imagine more people from our generation will likely choose to only have one child than in previous generations. For one thing, we are having kids much later in life than our parents and grandparents did. Also, the economy has to play a role as well. The Department of Agriculture estimates that it costs an average of $286,000 for one child in the US and that is before college.
We have several friends that have decided to only have one child. Some had difficult pregnancies/births and don't want to go through it again. Others feel that one child supports the lifestyle they want for their family better.
I imagine to some respect the grass is always greener. If you have one child, you probably wonder what it would've been like with 2 or 3. If you have more than one, you probably wonder if just having one would be easier.
I know the stereotypes. Only children are selfish, spoiled brats who are socially inept. But the recent research doesn't support those ideas anymore. There are also "nicer" aspects of the stereotype: only children having higher IQs because the parents have more time to spend on the one child in terms of homework and the like.
The nice thing about having siblings is it teaches conflict resolution and sharing in a self contained unit. Obviously, only children will still learn these values, it just has to come from outside your house through playdates and peers rather than siblings.
We are nowhere near even making these types of decisions, just an interesting topic to explore...Wonder what other people's ideas/experiences are like...Comment?
But I suppose when you really get down to it, it is no one's business what we decide to do with our family structure. I know it won't keep people from asking, but I will try to remember that if/when we make any decisions about how big our family should be, it is simply up to us and us alone. But because I know myself, I know I will probably continue to be bothered by this line of questioning, just like I got annoyed when it seemed like the second the ink was dry on our marriage license we (I) were getting hounded about when ,not if, we were gonna have kids. At least for the time being the question is if, not necessarily when:)
Today is just one of those days
that I want to run away and escape the incessant screaming. Even before she started screaming today I had a feeling like "I kinda wish I could go back to work in August." A feeling of listlessness, boredom and overall, meh. I have definitely struggled since we got back from San Diego. I guess I got used to having so many other extra pairs of hands around to hold Callie while I got to do things like shower or put clothes away or whatever. It has been difficult getting back to the idea that it is just me and her again. I found myself staring at the other people at the coffee shop this morning and wondering if they knew how lucky they were to have silence when they wanted it, if they knew how nice it is to say "You know what, I'm gonna go do x, y and z today" and that would be what they would do that day.
Maybe she is teething or having a growth spurt, but whatever it is, she is a grade A mess.
Maybe she is teething or having a growth spurt, but whatever it is, she is a grade A mess.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Anyone Can Wear Pink!
Callie and I took a nice long walk today down to The Falafel Drive In. Best Falafels in the bay area...We are sitting down and I am finishing my falafel when a mom and her son came up to me. The mom pointed out Callie and said "Look at the baby!" The boy was probably around 8 years old or so. He looked at me and asked "Is it a boy or a girl?" I responded with girl. His mom then said "You can tell its a girl because she is wearing pink." The boy very matter a factly turned to his mom and exclaimed, "But anyone can wear pink, mom!" Right you are my good man.
While we are on the topic, here is an interesting piece on color being associated with a certain gender. And another one on whether color preference is cultural or biological.
While we are on the topic, here is an interesting piece on color being associated with a certain gender. And another one on whether color preference is cultural or biological.
Shedding Skin
For the last couple of weeks I have had the priviledge of resuming my yoga work with the ultra amazing Marti Foster. I discovered her when I was pregnant and her prenatal yoga class was incredible. I use to call it Baby Bootcamp. I really do credit those classes with how strong my legs got over the course of my pregnancy. And let me tell you strong legs are essential for birth! I looked forward to her classes each week. So once we had Callie I had her Yoga for Moms class on my calendar for weeks. Marti has moved her Moms yoga class to a different location so the turnout has been low as of yet. As in, its just been me and her, which has been amazing. Obviously I hope that more people start showing up soon.
She said something to me on Tuesday that has been resonating with me. We were talking about how different life becomes so quickly when you bring a baby home. She said "it is like a snake shedding its skin." And I thought to myself Yes! She went on to say you don't necessarily look down at that skin you've shed (your pre child life) and look at it longingly but just that its a change, a new you. That is definitely how I feel these days. I don't necessarily miss my old life and honestly sometimes I can't really recall what it was. Sometimes I try to think to myself,
"If Callie wasn't with us, what would I be doing right now?" And I come up with a list, but somehow it just doesn't fit anymore. Each skin comes with its own challenges, mysteries and blessings. One isn't better or worse than another, just different. And it is that change that is so essential for growth.
Thank you Marti for helping me fit into my new skin a little better.
She said something to me on Tuesday that has been resonating with me. We were talking about how different life becomes so quickly when you bring a baby home. She said "it is like a snake shedding its skin." And I thought to myself Yes! She went on to say you don't necessarily look down at that skin you've shed (your pre child life) and look at it longingly but just that its a change, a new you. That is definitely how I feel these days. I don't necessarily miss my old life and honestly sometimes I can't really recall what it was. Sometimes I try to think to myself,
"If Callie wasn't with us, what would I be doing right now?" And I come up with a list, but somehow it just doesn't fit anymore. Each skin comes with its own challenges, mysteries and blessings. One isn't better or worse than another, just different. And it is that change that is so essential for growth.
Thank you Marti for helping me fit into my new skin a little better.
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